My trauma is not allowed to be your fantasy.
Tell me, what pleasure is there to be gained from the rape of a child?
That is what it was, you know.
It was not consensual.
or enjoyable.
or sexy.
or harmless.
or okay.
Rape (verb): to seize or take away something by force
That “something” was my innocence.
my childhood.
my joy.
my life.
The nightmare that brought me to the point of swallowing a bottle of pills and carving your name into my wrist should not bring you to climax.
It doesn’t belong to you.
I am not public property.
I am not free for your consumption.
I am not some sex toy.
I am a big sister.
I am a daughter.
I am a friend.
I am a person.
I just ask that you treat me as though you see me that way.
Tatiana is a college student who has had to take time off of school due to herself being priority. She loves soccer, dogs, and mountains.
Everlasting by Sharon Cummings